Journal Archives
Jean's
Journal
Just some reflections and things going
on with me in my daily life.
Best to start at the bottom and read up.
January 3, 2012...I am glad the new year is here. I expect
wonderful things this year and better things for God's people. I am
on the HCG diet and have good expectations for losing extra weight making some
new eating habits.
Dec. 26, 2011...My mother made her
visit. I put up her Christmas card (it was securely hanging by a ribbon on
a high branch)...her present to me the last Christmas she was on earth and I
hoped she would drop by. Sure enough at about 5:30 p.m. or 6 p.m. we heard
the noise of mother fliping or whatever she does to make it fall solidly to the
ground to make that noise. When I came into the living room, there
was the card. It was a beautiful card and I had put it in plastic.
It had a wonderful verse to a "daughter" and had a young girl with a
big green umbrella in the snow. Now I know what the umbrella meant
she made fall down a few months ago. It stands in the corner and is green,
just like the one in the card. She thought I would associate it with
the card (now I do). My mother was not able to shop that last Christmas
(like normal; nor did she have money)...but she made it to Hallmark to shop for
that card for me. I will always put it on my tree at Christmas.
December 21, 2011...I received
another set of 14s today. It was the 14th; I stopped for lunch at
Whataburger and got another ticket with table (tent) 14. I was thinking about the
situation with my sister after visiting her (I think about her a lot )...so God decided I needed a comforting reminder.
I think He sent me these
fourteens (14 - God's # for salvation or rescue from something) to comfort me.
December 7, 2011...another
"bird thing"...A very large Hawk flew into the patio doors (trying to
fly through it). He hit it so hard it stunned him. He stood there by
the glass door, he and my cat staring at each other with only a glass pane
between them. I got a really good look at him...such a strong looking
bird. By the time I thought to get the camera, he shook his big beak and
hoisted himself up and with some effort got lift over the house. There
have been several large Morning Doves fly into the glass doors...why are they
trying to come into the house?
October 21, 2009...It's really raining in Ft Worth
area. God told me to go through the gates when they open..
."Go through the
gates! Prepare the way for the people. Cast up, cast up the highway!
Gather out the stones. Lift up a standard or ensign (signal) over and for
the peoples." Is 62:10.(message from God).
October 18, 2009...I fell in slow motion a
couple of days ago. My shoe got caught in the rug and I fell side ways
against the wall in slow motion. It was an unusual occurrence. I had
time to realize that I was going to hit my head and wonder how bad it would
be. Like the times I have dreamed that I fell from high places and hit the
ground...and did not feel anything...this was the same way. I did not
really feel pain or hit with a lot of force. It seemed that I just
barely bumped against the wall. It left an imprint of the makeup on
the whole side of my face. I must still have somewhat of that cushion
around me I used to have. Back in 1980, I was driving and a car hit me
going at a fast speed; it hit on my side and the metal of my car wrapped around
me leaving a couple of inches. I guess God supplied my air bag on that
one; he may have stuck a helmet on me the other day! Thank you angelic
hosts.
October 6, 2009 .....Something new
is going on.
Sept. 21, 2009
......About a week ago, one of those nice little blessings ....I needed a hot
water maker (hotpot)...what we found was perfect. A two-cup water boiler
with spout, etc.....it was $14, and was the last one. I knew God had saved
it for me.
September 17, 2009 ....still
hot. Lots been going on with me. my 14s mount up so fast I
can't keep up with remembering very well. In Nov. I plan to find a
building for my new church/gallery/coffee house...The Lighthouse, or Eagle Row
(I haven't decided). Gold
told me a couple of months ago... to make my plan and He would bless it. So...I
am making plans.
August 31, 2009 - sure been hot
this month. My dogs are talking up a storm. The squirrel kept
leaving me half eaten nuts, so I thought maybe he was planting his seed
offering...so I bought him a bag of sunflower seeds and left him some.
Wonder if squirrels eat sunflower seeds...they used to eat the birds'
seeds. Had a birthday; getting better. My mother decided to get in
on the action. Can't tell what she did; but, boy was I surprised...but
that was just like her (when she was about 50 yrs old)...she's in heaven now, ...most
of the time).
May 22, 2009 - A couple of
days ago, I had another bird visitor. This time it was a Mockingbird who
tried to talk to me. I was standing before the desk in the same room as
when the Red Bird hovered at the window. This time the Mockingbird
fluttered and flapped at the window like he was trying to get in. It was
really a bit disconcerting because he/she was screaming and crying! I have
never heard a Mockingbird sound like that; it was very unnatural and
startling! It was obvious the bird was upset and searching me out to
solve some problem...I felt pretty helpless to do anything. After he/she
finally flew off, I went to the back yard just in case I might see if something
huge (a big bird) was chasing this Mockingbird. He was gone and I didn't
see anything else. Oh yes, God told me to go to bed Monday night. I
was watching a program I usually watch at 9:00 p.m. and when it was over at 10
p.m. some announcer said (as the credits rolled) ..."It is now time for you
to go beddy bye." Ha, ha...God sure is creative ...telling me to go
to bed from the TV. It had to be God; the networks don't want you to go to
bed; they want you to watch TV!
May 8, 2009 - I sure need to
carry around my camera! Yesterday a squirrel did a tight-rope act
for me in the back yard! He walked across a very thin cable very
high for about 30 yards. But what was even more startling was a red bird
who "hovered" outside the bedroom window this past Monday.
I had just come home and walked into a bedroom beside the window. All of a
sudden, this beautiful Redbird flew right to the window to see me.
There was no room for him to perch on the ledge outside, so he just flapped his
wings for at least 50 seconds and hovered right there, like a Hummingbird!
I just stood still and watched him. After he got tired, he flew off.
Did God come down in bodily form to say hello? I did have a wonderful time
in prayer that morning.
April 6, 2009 - Went to
Arkansas end of March; had a good trip. Received some personal
enlightenment. All is well with my soul. I has been very windy
lately here. It is so great to have singing birds serenade me when sit
outside with Annie (the Lhasa dog). She likes to feel the wind in her hair
and sniff the breeze; which she can't do now because I really trimmed her.
She looks sort of like a cross between a Poodle and a Snauzer now. (really
adorable). It takes so much grooming for her; yikes!
After calling some grooming places and visiting a couple in the past, I decided
that I could not submit her to the treatment of the groomers. Even at
best, it would be too tiring and scary for her. She does not take well to
strangers. Her breed was bred to give the alarm of intruders at the
Tibetian monasteries.
March 6, 2009
- Had a great time with Father a couple of days ago. I start with worship
and praise and then get into petition and prayer...soon by the Holy Spirit, I
start having a conversation with God about the things I am praying about.
Sometimes I get a different direction and solutions as I commune and have a
two-way dialog with the Father or Jesus. You just don't know how
things can take a new direction or get clarified differently until you discuss
it with God! Oh yes,...He told me I was " like a Willow Tree...(I
would have expected him to say "Oak"...but ...)
January 14, 2009 - Wow!
Sure am glad holidays are over. Things settled down (as much as they get)
with me. I have things I want and need to do. Yesterday morning a
beautiful red bird was waiting for me out front; he was cheeping a bit trying to
talk , it was so cold; then when I got close he started to sing a beautiful
song, almost like a Mockingbird. I didn't know Red Birds (Cardinals) could
sing like that! I am always amazed at God's creation!
November 26, 2008 - Today
has been a very busy day, as most are. Yesterday was my mother's birthday;
I still miss her. Happy Birthday, mother...Are you still 23 years
old? Probably so. I haven't heard from her for a couple of
years...not since I prayed and asked the Father to have her get in touch with
me. That was a couple of years after she passed on to Heaven. I got
to keep tabs on her...and the changes of her age. I saw her at about 40ish
and then later...and then when she came to me after I prayed to hear from
her,...her voice came to me through a painting that had been hers I had
painted I had hanging above my bed. I asked her, "How old are
you now?" She said, "I'm 23 now." Then about a week
later God gave me confirmation of that. I was in the hospital with my
sister...sitting in her room; outside in front of the nurses' counter was a
young blond nurse talking, and the only thing I heard was...."I'm 23
now." How different it was to think of my mother as being
younger than me. I decided she had moved on and lost the sorrow of the
years she had suffered... So, I haven't bothered her since then. I will
see that youthful lady when I get there; I am sure that we will be great
friends! So, Happy Birthday to a wonderful young lady; wonder if you're
24... Tomorrow is Thanksgiving; I am so thankful for all the good things in my
life, and the ability to deal with whatever comes my way that may not be so
good..."I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me."
" Lord help me to change things that need to be changed, and can be
changed;... help me to cope with things that cannot be changed, and the
wisdom to know the difference." Amen.
Nov 12 - A couple of days ago, a dear saint shed
light on something I had wondered about since 1992. My dad was a car
dealer after getting out of the building business (on his second profession),
and had looked for me a car, and was led by the Spirit to obtain me a good
little vehicle. I don't look at the license plate until after I buy a car
usually, and it was the same with this one. I do take notice of the
plate; God always has a message there for me. This one had the
number 26 in it. The letters were my initials and were accounted
for. I have wondered since then what the 26 represented. I found out
that 26 is the Hebrew sum of numbers assigned to God's name in Hebrew. I
think that is fascinating! I intend to study Hebrew when I
can. 26 Is also the number of years it has been since I was
empowered, equipped, etc. God does have a way of giving messages with
double meanings (but not contradictory). For instance, the dream He gave
me in 1987, when I asked Him to reveal to me when Jesus would return for the
Church (the rapture), ...I dreamed of a hand of cards that enfolded in front of
me. Very clearly I saw a huge card with the number 14 on it. At the
time I wondered if He meant 14 years from then. Of course, the time came
and went. A little later, I found out that 14 was God's number for
salvation. So, then I thought he was just giving me a general
idea...salvation would come. Now, I have another perception
coming. I cannot reveal it yet but will keep it in my heart.
Nov 10 - The 2008 election is over. My, my
... the people got what they thought they wanted. Now, I wonder what
they will do when their government does not pay their mortgages fast
enough or put gas in their vehicle. The country is like a mob controlled
by the liberal media. Will they demand the president elect's head on a
platter...or that he be impeached if they don't see the wealth disbursed and
spread around like he promised?
Nov
1, 2008 - At 6 p.m. the beautiful bird came to my window...... (I
was reclining with Annie looking at a brochure .) He actually tried to
perch on the window pane; all the while singing a beautiful song. I guess
he had missed me today. How neat is that!......................... I
had a new word in my spirit and had to look it up in the dictionary. The
word is "usufruct" (sounds
bad doesn't it? ha, ha). The definition according to Webster's Collegiate
Dictionary is, "the legal right of using or enjoying the fruits or profits
of something belonging to another. The right to use or enjoy
something." I guess the root of this is "use
fruits." It is pronounced u-za-frak (sort
of). Interesting word; never heard it before in my life.
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